No brained year 18 rinse and repeat please?

Is there an age or year of your life you would re-live?

OMG this is an easy one!!!! Answer is 18. See my parents bought a new house which had only 3 bedrooms. The house I was raised in had 4. I had my own room. Since the new house didn’t have the 4th bedroom I asked where will I sleep? Mother said maybe I should move out. I had been dating my first husband for a hot second. So the little 18 year old girl I was decided to get married.

You can guess the rest? The guy was mentally crazy. He lied about everything! Claiming he was a Vietnam vet AND a CIA trained assassin. Yeah right. That truth was figured out soon when I filled out a form. When saw I had checked veteran He made me uncheck it claiming he was undercover. Hahahahaha Then he acknowledged the truth because he wasn’t even old enough for the conflict years.

His lying was a personality trait. He held nobody as high as himself. The lies were just plain vicious when he began on me. First baby yup it’s his. Second kid? Nope. Even though he was very much an active participant AND he also was aware I wanted to get pregnant with kid 2 he decided to leave me and live with another woman. The entire pregnancy was spent alone hearing about his lies alleging too many lies to even recount. He did as my mother had done; lied about me first so I couldn’t even defend myself. His biggest was kid 2 was fathered by the teenage boy next door. (Also sister hoarder’s boyfriend) Then she was fathered by a used car salesman who had sold him a car 2.5 years earlier. Maybe…if I only I carried it that long?

Lesson learned? Liars go to hell. I get to go to heaven where my father, now freed from my mother, and 2 sisters are waiting. But yeah 18 was the year I would love to have changed every single choice I made. Clearly the 18 year old abused brain was not emotionally ready to do as I did. The home I had was not filled with love, respect or even happiness.

But the 2 kids. Yeah erase them. Please?